Hormones, Holidays, and Hope!!

DH, MIL, FIL, and I went to "Marley and Me" yesterday and it was great, but bring tissues (especially if pregnant)!! All I kept thinking about was my Roscoe!!


The Greatest Dog EVER!!

I am super hormonally sensitive lately. For those of you who don't know me personally, even before I was pregnant I would cry at commericals and when I was younger I was not allowed to watch "Lasie, "Flipper", "Benji", or any thing with animals in danger or lost. Tears would flow at the thought of any of them getting hurt or killed. So can you imagine me now!?!?

I feel so much conflict after reading some of my other bloggers experiences. I am drawn back into the "what ifs" and "how comes". I've found that with my emotional state so very sensitive, it keeps me in check to the awareness of others' losses and my own blessings.

To Emilies family over at "Lemmondrops", her husband Steve and their two boys (2 years old and 9 months old) I am so sorry for the loss of her to cancer. Her blog, even though I had only been reading it for the last couple months, gave me a clearer understanding of the importance of daily life. Emilie and Steve's dedication also showed the strength of the faith they shared as a family.

And to my friend over at "Life in our Nutchell", Chell's miscarriage and the honest emotions she shares since then. I wish I could wrap my arms around them and make them feel whole again. I know this is not my purpose and this "well wishing" won't change anything, but I feel like I am only able to wave at them from the other side of these life events with pangs of guilt for how far I've made it so far. Yet they still have understanding and strength to say the best of prayers for the rest of our journey.

I always have those mixed feelings after the holidays. The relief of them being done and no more hussle and bussle, but the blahs of back to work and the daily grind. But this year I am so thankful I still have baby to keep me looking forward to 2009. I can't believe that I am at 12 weeks, it so surreal! Excited about having a baby bump, feeling the first kicks, my next u/s to "see" our little one, finding out if its a boy or girl, getting the nursery ready, anticipation of the arrival, and the homecoming. Cheers to 2009!

My hopes for 2009 are to quit, lose, and save.
QUIT taking my life and family for granted,
LOSE my would've, could've, should've attitude,
and SAVE my memories that have renewed my faith in god, people, and the future.

Happy HoliDAZE!!

I am already exhausted and Christmas is still 5 days away!!

I had my first offical OB appt on the 10th the day we left to go up north to Lutsen. All is great and the best part is that I am not considered "high-risk"!! So I won't be having the amnio and other additional tests. We just went over the rest of what to expect over the next couple appts, had a pap, blood drawn, and urine. Pretty simple.

Lutsen was relaxing and great to catch up with everyone. Got some more great presents for the baby. Bibs, book, journal, and musical frog. So sweet that I would rather open things for baby than myself, but I did get some cute maternity tops from my brother (he drew my name, and my SIL helped)!!

**my pics from Lutsen didn't turn out, only had my cell camera, need one with zoom etc**

This last week has been HELL. This time of year is crazy for me at work, on my feet all day! Its great money, but hard to get everyone in which makes for some long days. Two more days left (Mon and Tues) then I can relax again for a little while.

Tomorrow we are headed to the cities, DH Christmas present from me is a trip down to the Vikings/Falcons football game! We set a limit this year so it worked out pretty good, at least it's something I know he wants and will enjoy!!

To all of you I wish the simple joys of being with loved family and friends. Happy Holidays!!

Relaxing . . .

we are up north at Caribou Highlands townhomes by Lutsen. So far we've all gotten settled and waiting for parents to arrive. Playing wii, making food, and catching up on each others lives.

We will celebrate our "old fashion Christmas" on Saturday evening. Most my siblings will be skiing Friday and Saturday. I will be reading my new book, "The Story of Edgar Sawtell", my pick for the next bookclub in Feb (sometime, have to pick a date).

I plan on taking pics to share with you all later.

And the stockings were hung by the chimney with care!

We are all decorated for the Christmas and even put up an extra stocking for Baby Gibby! My favorite part (after going into the cold weather, picking up the real tree, messing with the tangled lights, and finding the perfect branch for the ornaments, putting away everything so I can have room for my snowmen, Christmas pictures, and nativity scene) is sitting down with hot cocoa this year, usually its wine, and admiring the lights, the sentimental holiday gifts from years past, and now seeing the beginning of our family displayed in a row over the fireplace.

Very emotional the last couple days, evened out with random mood swings. Poor hubby, he's handling it great but I wouldn't be surprised to find coal in my stocking this year!!

Still feeling great, more and more tired every week. Clothes are starting to get a little snug but I think I can make it til after the holidays to start shopping for clothes.