Early this week I joined Facebook. Thanks to my Steph-mom (not a type-o, thats my nickname for her), she joined and then for me to see her profile I had to join then I seen everyone else on there that I lost contact with and now I'm addicted. Even put pics on there and filled out cheesy "All About Me" stuff!! I will never seem to disconnect for modern technology!! Oh Well!!
Another thing that's new has to do with the babymaking part of our life. DH and I have talk about how things are going and have decided to start looking into the adoption process. Lucky us, I have a client that is in the adoption field and, even luckier for us, she was in today and said she could help us get started. I don't know how this is going to go yet emotionally, but so far I have a good feeling that makes this option worth checking out.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Tuesday thoughts.
Wow! Tuesday already!! I have to say I've enjoyed it, kind of took a half day off for a "mental health" day. I went in and did a couple of clients, 11AM I had a wonderful full body massage (thanks to DH), and followed that with a light lunch with my preggo friend Kate! Sometimes its nice to hear her bitch about being pregnant (I'm evil). Then I went back to work for one more client. Now I'm home catching up on emails, etc. DH is out fishing with a buddy and text me to let me know he'll be home later, no problem, more time with myself to enjoy. I'm sure he's happy too!!
This second cycle of clomid is going well like the first. Nothing different, currently feeling like I have two grapefruits in my lower abdomine. Kind of uncomfortable but not painful. Should be in the 2ww soon. Mood is even, not excited about this cycle, but still have some hope though not much. Just go with it, nothing else to do. Prayers are welcome.
This second cycle of clomid is going well like the first. Nothing different, currently feeling like I have two grapefruits in my lower abdomine. Kind of uncomfortable but not painful. Should be in the 2ww soon. Mood is even, not excited about this cycle, but still have some hope though not much. Just go with it, nothing else to do. Prayers are welcome.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Finally . . .
I got them to go through!! How funny it is to wait for an instant idea of what your children might look like. Aren't they cute!! Now I really can't make up my mind on which I would rather have, a Gigget or a Gibby?!?! *Not their real names*
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Babymaking Babble
I know I have a life lesson in this babymaking journey but I just want to know what level in this "game" am I on?? I think I'm stranded on the Emotionally Frustrated level. Sunday night I knew I was expecting AF, didn't even try testing this month. I figured since we were taking a break I would go with the flow, and AF I found. I was the most upset this time more than any other month. I cried my self to sleep in the spare room since DH went to bed before me and was already snoring in la la land (I was sooo jealous).
I think what really upset me is that I finally relaxed this time and forgot about charting and thinking about babies, feeling a pregnancy, deciding on cloth diapers (yes), looking at safe strollers, car seats, nursery furniture, what it would be like going on family vacations, first day of school, starting a college fund, etc. Ok, back on track. I had gotten through a month without dreaming, and what did that get me . . . not pregnant. I was so upset I actually thought of giving up totally and then I realized something more scary than not being pregnant, not knowing what to do with my life if I couldn't be a mom!!
*I'm crying just typing this*
I cried at that thought til I fell asleep.
When I woke up Monday morning with puffy eyes I still felt awful. DH made me coffee and I went to my Chiro for my appt. Seeing that I was suffering more than "Monday Blues" we talked about research he had been doing on our situation. I blubbered a bit at how much he is putting into this and a few tissues later we decided to keep doing adjustments, looking into supplements to add to mine and DH's diet (more omega-3, fish oils). Went home and got a hug and kisses from the DH and told him the plan.
Tuesday AF made her grand entrance, I always spot a few days before. Emotionally back to normal and going with the plan to relax and limit the baby thoughts. Working on getting me out of the house and back in to shape to reduce stress. I used to LOVE to workout and I want to feel that way again!!
Thanks Carrie, for the letting me know about SparkPeople.com. I find it super motivating and keeps me in check with fitness, diet, and activities to keep going!!
Weds - I felt even better and ready to do make some more changes, joining a gym! Not officially, just a 1 week trial! Plus picked up my prescription for Clomid. Yep, cycle #2 with Clomid (and Chiro, relaxing, working out). Too much, we'll see.
Thurs - Started Clomid, and bought new shoes . . . for the gym!! Also down loaded a new book "The Shack" and some more meditation podcasts!! Yeah!!
Final note before I sign off to this post, I found a website that combines pictures of you and your partner and shows you what your child would look like (makemebabies.com) and so I thought how cool and I tried it. After finding the right pics and setting it up I was ready to process it, pushed process button, and got this message: Sorry, our server is overloaded and cannot process your baby, please try again tomorrow, thank you for your patience.
Negative Thought: I can't even make a digital baby!!
Positive Thought: Must be one heck of a beautiful baby if we can't even see a preview!!
I think what really upset me is that I finally relaxed this time and forgot about charting and thinking about babies, feeling a pregnancy, deciding on cloth diapers (yes), looking at safe strollers, car seats, nursery furniture, what it would be like going on family vacations, first day of school, starting a college fund, etc. Ok, back on track. I had gotten through a month without dreaming, and what did that get me . . . not pregnant. I was so upset I actually thought of giving up totally and then I realized something more scary than not being pregnant, not knowing what to do with my life if I couldn't be a mom!!
*I'm crying just typing this*
I cried at that thought til I fell asleep.
When I woke up Monday morning with puffy eyes I still felt awful. DH made me coffee and I went to my Chiro for my appt. Seeing that I was suffering more than "Monday Blues" we talked about research he had been doing on our situation. I blubbered a bit at how much he is putting into this and a few tissues later we decided to keep doing adjustments, looking into supplements to add to mine and DH's diet (more omega-3, fish oils). Went home and got a hug and kisses from the DH and told him the plan.
Tuesday AF made her grand entrance, I always spot a few days before. Emotionally back to normal and going with the plan to relax and limit the baby thoughts. Working on getting me out of the house and back in to shape to reduce stress. I used to LOVE to workout and I want to feel that way again!!
Thanks Carrie, for the letting me know about SparkPeople.com. I find it super motivating and keeps me in check with fitness, diet, and activities to keep going!!
Weds - I felt even better and ready to do make some more changes, joining a gym! Not officially, just a 1 week trial! Plus picked up my prescription for Clomid. Yep, cycle #2 with Clomid (and Chiro, relaxing, working out). Too much, we'll see.
Thurs - Started Clomid, and bought new shoes . . . for the gym!! Also down loaded a new book "The Shack" and some more meditation podcasts!! Yeah!!
Final note before I sign off to this post, I found a website that combines pictures of you and your partner and shows you what your child would look like (makemebabies.com) and so I thought how cool and I tried it. After finding the right pics and setting it up I was ready to process it, pushed process button, and got this message: Sorry, our server is overloaded and cannot process your baby, please try again tomorrow, thank you for your patience.
Negative Thought: I can't even make a digital baby!!
Positive Thought: Must be one heck of a beautiful baby if we can't even see a preview!!
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Another weekend, here and gone!!
I've had a good and busy weekend. Worked late on Friday night so I didn't feel guilty taking another Saturday off. Drove to Sebeka, MN with my sis, Lori, her BF Tim, and my nephew Zak. My cousin Jody and her daughter Melissa were visiting from San Bernadeno, CA to celebrate Melissa graduation from Cajon High School!! It was great to see lots of my rellies from my moms side and already looking forward to the family reunion next June!!
Woke up at 7am this morning, packed up and enjoyed coffee with my aunt and uncle before heading home.
Took a wonderful (much needed) nap as soon as I got home. Crabby was understated at this time. Woke up, took shower, got ready, and headed to SIL for a family gathering. Great food, tried red cake for the first time and unfortunatly LOVED IT!! Thanks MIL, Sally!!
Now home and ready for bed after this update. Will try to inject some excitement next time, for now I just have pics . . .
Below are a few of the amazing things I have been able to grow this summer (the amazing part is that they are still alive).
Here are some cute pics of my Aunt Gloria and Uncle Darrlys dog Sparky!! What a trooper, he loved the hat and posed perfectly for the camera. If only Roscoe would be so easy I would have billions of pics of him!!
Woke up at 7am this morning, packed up and enjoyed coffee with my aunt and uncle before heading home.
Took a wonderful (much needed) nap as soon as I got home. Crabby was understated at this time. Woke up, took shower, got ready, and headed to SIL for a family gathering. Great food, tried red cake for the first time and unfortunatly LOVED IT!! Thanks MIL, Sally!!
Now home and ready for bed after this update. Will try to inject some excitement next time, for now I just have pics . . .
Below are a few of the amazing things I have been able to grow this summer (the amazing part is that they are still alive).
Here are some cute pics of my Aunt Gloria and Uncle Darrlys dog Sparky!! What a trooper, he loved the hat and posed perfectly for the camera. If only Roscoe would be so easy I would have billions of pics of him!!
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